Love Makes it Count!

Hard to admit but I am a late bloomer. I lost my virginity at the age of 27, so upon writing this I realize that this would be my ten years celebrating the first time I experience having sex. It was with my girlfriend back then. She was my first time and I was her third boyfriend. I don’t mind it at first and denying it to myself that even though she will by my first time it is fine and had no issue about it. But that was the mistake as it was always part of our argument and quarrels being in a romantic relationship. Always looking at the notion of ownership and being the first to own a girls purity and taking away that medal – a pride.

My relationship with her ended after two years. I never clearly understand what we had only focusing on having sex if we had the time and move on with our daily activities. As I reflect now, it seems that we only used each other as a scapegoat me having her to have my first sexual intercourse experience and for her as a companion for her past relationship that always ended up in a mess.

It seems that we did not value more and did not see the deeper meaning of sex in a relationship. It is only part and parcel of an on-going process of everyday challenged being in a relationship and being in-love. Sex (sexual intercourse) entails a huge responsibility with both individuals in a mutual relationship. Each person is giving their best side of their personality hoping in return that the other person will value it. hard to know that it is only physical and sooner or later it will fade and a new way to keep the fire burning must be made being in a relationship, being in love.

Now, I have no regrets only feeling sorry for myself that I did not value more. That I should not rush things and get involve myself into a deeper meaning and realities of life being in love. Love for oneself is the first thing that matters. If we did not value our being how a person can be an effective lover if complacency is on that person’s vocabulary? 

Only love can make it counts as that is and will always be the greatest gift we can give and receive. An example of that is a familial love in upbringing a child in family. Which is majority of people had resulted from having a fling or attraction but includes hardship, dedication, commitment, and love to a family that can be rewarding gift for each members. For being courageous and truthful with our decisions on love will make it counts. Put love on everything that you do and it will radiates with the people around you.